End of Days

It's been quite a while since I've updated this blog, due to laziness and lack of new updates in life. Anyways, this post will essentially be about what's bugging my mind right now.

Form 6.

After several more hours, I'll head out to my ex-school to finalize all the necessary requirements for the documents needed for registration as a student of Form VI, then after an hour or so after that, head out to my new school.

Batu Lintang...

To be frank? I'm not all too excited about going there. It's not that I don't want to attend school or anything―rather, it's that
I'm dreading what will come next.

Within the immediate week, orientation. From early morning 'till noon. In a new school which I've never been familiar with... okay, so orientation is supposed to familiarize us with it. No arguments there. Still... I'm betting my cards that nearly all of it will be brain-killing.

I really do not want to go. I just want to stay home and enjoy the last week of holidays, before hell arrives to torment me anew. But my parents insist I go. And I doubt I have a choice of my own.

But worst of all, are these certain issues playing through my mind:



1. I won't have any close friends in BL.
Sure, some of my classmates are going there. But I was never the popular guy. The closest I came to popular was when I remarked on something and everyone laughed. Which I assure you, is feckin' rare. Of all the friends I was comfy with last year, none will go where I will, I believe. Churchill? In goddamned Swinburne. Jeff? If it ain't matriculation, it'll be NS... good luck to him on that. Chuan Yee? Bound for KL soon, if he's not already there. My NS buddies?

ALL IN FECKIN' GREEN ROAD!

Sure, I can transfer. And I will. But it takes time... maybe even months. Do I really want to uproot myself and start familiarizing myself all over again? No I don't, but I've no choice. It's that, or stay at kiasu BL. Which leads us to no. 2...



2. BL is fucking kiasu.

Or so I heard from Wan Ying. *Sigh* Churchill's been telling me I don't know anything about it myself, that I can't judge based on others' experiences. Fact: How am I supposed not to? By the time I get in, it'll be too late for me to say, "Fuck, I miscalculated, BL is kiasu afterall." This is all I have to go with. And anyone who knows me, knows how bad I hate the 'kiasu' attitude. It's not my style, and it'll never be my style. Gah. As for the third and last...



3. I'm in the Science stream. Déjà vu, anyone?

The last time I checked, I did badly in the aforementioned stream. I fucking suck at Maths. And do a few appalling notches better at Science subs. After thinking, I decided to play to my strengths―if I'm so good in English, I might as well be a journalist. So I decided to do Mass Comm... but I doubt Science subs will help me get there.

Solution? Apply for transfer. But there have been cases where it was rejected. In other words, fuck the government.
So yeah, this issue is one I can solve... but it cuts both ways. *Frowns* Not to mention I'll have to take Science subs for the meantime, until I switch. Then I have to―wait for it―familiarize myself with the new subs! *Exasperated groan* GODDAMNED RED TAPE!

These 3 issues are more than enough to worry me already... I only hope I don't drop dead during orientation. I have to find a way to skip it. Before I degenerate into random babble, I suppose I should just shut up, so here you go.

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